“Nothing is so painful to the human mind as a great and sudden change.”
― Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley, Frankensteinhttps://www.goodreads.com/quotes/tag/change
2020 was suppose to be THE year! It was the symbol for a new beginning, rebirth, and a clean slate….but, 2020 had a different vision for how this year would go. February the world started to hear of this strange disease that was running wild in China. Some called it the Corona Virus, Covid-19, or the Novel Corona Virus of 2019. Most Americans didn’t think the virus would even reach the United States. Yes, I was one of those people that just brushed it off like a stupid teenager with the attitude of that’s not my problem and just continued on with my life. Well, then March hit and the virus was in the United States and America took a moment, but then continued on with their own life. Then March 15th hit and the country started to close. Some states softly closed; limiting people in stores and enforcing the use of wearing mask. Other states did a full lock down. Stores closed, restaurants shut down, salons, gyms, yoga studios, you name it, they closed. I live in Illinois where we had a hard shut down. The lives of all Illinoisan’s as we knew it was over as the state prepared for the lockd won. I was forced to close my doors not knowing how I was going to pay my bills, how would I keep my business going, and just how was I going to adapt to this new change?
The reality of COVID is that a business I built up for the past seven years crumbled in about 4 months. And….it fucking sucks. It just sucks. Point Blank, End Of Story! I had absolutely no control over this and it sucks. I had to and continue to grieve the loss of my business, lively hood, and dream. But, the silver lining is that I am safe and Corona free (for the moment).
With the virus rapidly spreading and the number of cases started to climb again (could this be the second wave?) and states start to open up more and more, I was forced (with some personal circumstances going on in my own life) to make a few massive decisions. So, I decided to step down from teaching any in person classes (not including outside) and switch to being strictly an online content creator. This means online yoga classes, Facebook live streams, Instagram lives, and really utilizing the different social media platforms. Starting an Etsy Shoppe dedicated to my Eclectic Witchcraft, visit: https://www.etsy.com/shop/TheWitchsAfterHour?coupon=BLESSEDBE20 for 20% off. I also got the opportunity to enroll in a Yoga Therapy Program, which I has always wanted to do. This will allow me to work in a more medical, mental health, and therapeutic setting.
“The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward.” – Steve Marabolihttps://www.countryliving.com/life/entertainment/g5153/positive-quotes-about-change/?slide=7
As, I am excited to let go of what my life used to be and come into what I know the universe has been preparing me for. I am sad. I am sad to let go of what I thought I needed to do with my life. But, I embrace it the change. I let go of the fear I had for myself. I let go of creating the a version of myself that I thought everyone wanted me to be. I embrace the badass, plussize, curvy, mouth of a sailor, woman I am. I embrace and look forward to cultivating my own authenticity and shedding the fear of what use to be. I let go of the fear and I embrace living in the moment.
I am excited to acually start being the authentically, PG-13, plus size woman I am. Buckle up butter cups, the journey has just began. Hold on to your tits and here we go.
Happy Wednesday! Namaste & Blessed Be.