For the past seven years I have worked. I put my nose to the pavement and I have just worked and worked and worked. Let me tell you. The grind and the struggle is real. I worked form sun up to sun down. I did anything and everything I could to get my name out there. I gave away free product, I tried this I tried that, and I would go out of my way to make sure everyone was happy. I didn’t stop working for seven years. Yes, there was a few family centered vacations and of course holidays, but at the end of the day I was working as much as I could.
I was forced to stop working. I was forced to figure out a completely different way how to market myself. I was without an income for almost three months. So, I started to live stream, started an etsy shoppe, created a YouTube channel….I did pretty much everything to make sure people were happy. But, I was slowly just getting burnt out. My body hurt, I was frustrated, and I was starting to resent my jobs (which I love so much).
I needed a break. I needed a break more than I needed water. So, I took my boyfriend’s (The Tallman, he’s 6’4) advice and I cancelled live streams for a few weeks (maybe a month) and I stopped working. I stopped doing what I was doing packed up my car and The Tallman and I road tripped it down to Florida, Fort Meyer’s Beach to be exact.
First let me stop and say something. Yes, traveling during a pandemic is not the smartest thing. The cases in Fort Meyer, FL (Lee County) is around 2,000 (approximately ) with about 120 deaths and the cases are as of this moment trending downward. So, it is a little bit safer than being in Illinois during the time of Covid-19. *Side Note: one of my boyfriend’s relavtives works for the CDC so we took their suggestion and came to Florida to help build some immunity for the virus*
The trip down to Florida was about a 20 hour drive broken up into two 10 hour days. It was a long few days, but we finally got here.
And….let me say….it was totally worth it.
I have been able to swim everyday. Eat healthy. Go outside without worrying about catching The Corona Virus. And…Most….Of….All I have been able to just relax and not worry about everything.
Yes, I am worried about coming back to Illinois and working due to the nature of my immune system and just how Illinois weather is for my fibromyalgia. But, I will be back in Illinois at the end of June so I can start back up and see people for massage and yoga….I am still trying to figure out the yoga piece.
What can I take away from spending a month away from Illinois. I can take peace knowing that I needed to do this. I needed the month away from regular life. I needed to take the time to relax and just not put my nose to the grind.
AND….it’s been beyond needed and nice to actually be able to practice the self care that I preach.
I’ll see you on the flip side.
Namaste & Blessed Be.
“It’s only after we’ve lost everything that we’re free to do anything.”
― Chuck Palahniukhttps://www.goodreads.com/work/quotes/68729-fight-club
As of March 16th, 2020 the world as we know it has gone into isolation. People are practicing social distancing, local businesses are forced to close for the foreseeable future, people are finding out ways to work from home, and you can’t get any fucking toilet paper anywhere. It seems that the world has gone dormant with the possibility of returning to, “business as usual,” anytime soon slim to none. It’s like humanity right now is the experiment for the apocalyptic dystopia of the 31st century that will drain our sanity and bank accounts until we start trading for goods via stones and rocks.
But….Hey maybe it’s not all bad? Maybe this time where thousands of people are out of work (including myself) and trying to figure out how to pay bills, survive being at home for 2-3 weeks, and cancelling vacations (which some of us…aka me….really need) could be a time to reconnect with our inner-selves, nature, and the universe. Or maybe we can all just sit in a corner and watch the world crumble, where we need to where hazmat suits when we go out, and we have to wash our hands every five seconds & never touch our faces again. Maybe I can sit down with my nieces and nephews and tell them how the world before the Corona Virus was different and we didn’t have to wear protective gear to go outside and you could actually enjoy the sun on our faces, roll down small grassy hills, and make s’mores around the campfire.
“Only in the shattering can the rebuilding occur.”
― Barbara Marciniak, Family of Light: Pleiadian Tales and Lessons in Livinghttps://www.goodreads.com/quotes/tag/rebuild
I am hoping that during this time people can get back to the simplicity of the life. I feel that people have grown so far away from the idea of minimalism and just now focus on the materialistic things of this world….like to much toilet paper…..really everyone you don’t need 100 rolls of toilet paper…..just saying.
During this pause in the universe, maybe it’s a sign? Maybe it’s a sign to take a moment and calm down and do some soul work. Reconnect with a part of you that has gone to the wayside. Learn how to be your authentic self and cultivate a relationship with one’s self (mind & body connection-relationship-thing). Or, maybe you just learn how to prioritize yourself over anyone else. Sometimes it’s OK to think about yourself more than the person next to you…..we are in a technical pandemic after all.
Corona Virus itself brings on the sense of the world ending, crippling anxiety, and just the fear of death, dying, & despair. Let me give you a list of things to help ease the feeling of death, dying, and despair.
- All else fails just keep breathing. This will ensure you stay alive for the foreseeable future.
- Be prepared to not go out for a bit. Knowing you are prepared can help easy the anxiety of running out of essential items like toilet paper.
- Move your body! Start your own home yoga practice. There are tons of yoga videos on YouTube that you can watch and get your yoga on…..and I will be putting up a few for as well as a donation based video yoga series.
- Interact with your friends & loved ones in anyway that is apart of social distancing. Face-time, Google Hangouts, Skype, Discord. You name it, find it, and use it. Human connection is very important in this time of isolation and quarantine.
- Relax and don’t stress out! Stress will kill your immune system quickly and right now we all need help keeping our immune systems high functioning.
- Last, but not least laugh & smile it will do your mind and body all the good.
Stay safe & Covid-19 free during this time of quarantine. We’ll talk soon!
When working at so many places putting in 10-14 hour days and feeling like life has hit you in the face and leaves you wanting to crawl into a hole and slowly whither away…and let me tell you it finally did me in. I was exhausted , overworked, and not making hardly any money after paying bills. So, I had to re evaluate some aspects of my life. What was working, what wasn’t working, and what needed to change so I could be living a more successful life. So, what did I do? I quick one job and got hired at another place, decided to beef up my yoga schedule to try and get more reliable income (still working on that), and decided to just pay off two credit cards in full draining my back accounts. Some things were done in the spur of the moment, others were done with a lot of thought and consideration. I have also had to shift how I think and feel about certain aspects of my life. How I do thinks? Can I do them better? How can I take care of myself better? And the best part is…I still don’t have any answers to any questions, I’m still lost in this crazy thing called life and I have a feeling this is going to be a permanent state of mind for a while. Do I enjoy being in this confusing state, no absolutely not. But, I know that it is necessary for me to be here; even though I may not enjoy any part of it. But, with this weird state, I am in and with myself just working my life into the grave, I know that good things are on the horizon. That if I can hold out for just a bit longer, things will be happier and healthier in my life. I’ll quote journey for a second, “don’t stop believing,” and that is just what I intend to do. Until next time everyone. Light, love, & Namaste.
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The Curvy Yogini
“Life moves fast, if you don’t stop to look around you might miss it.” – Ferris Bueller’s Day Off
Yes, hello! It’s your friendly neighborhood yoga instructor of the plus size variety. I know it’s been a while, but for good reason! I have been sick…..well yes I have been sick, but really I have been juggling 10 jobs, yes I said it TEN jobs! I work at two places for massage and 8 places for yoga. I know, I know I am crazy, insane, and a chaotic sounding person! Well, it’s because I am. I love being busy I love having to go do things. Maybe it’s because I like to stay busy to help calm my nerves from the impending doom of failure or maybe I just like to be doing things and I enjoy my day off (yes, I allow myself ONE day off). Let me tell you that one day off is amazing. I try not to do anything or maybe I just focus on catching up on paperwork that I have neglected during the week. But, last week as I relaxed the whole day and unfortunately got sick I wanted to look up a meditation for myself to get me in the mood of healing and relaxing.
Guided Meditation Script Part 1
Find yourself a quiet place to sit. Turn off your phone and dim the lights. This is your time. A time for total relaxation and inner stillness.
Take a moment to make sure that you are warm enough, and that you are seated comfortably. Rest your hands loosely in your lap. Now close your eyes.
Take a long slow, deep breath in…hold it for a moment, and then slowly exhale.
Just allow any tension to melt away as you gradually relax more and more deeply with each breath.
Take another long slow, deep breath in…hold it, and then exhale. Empty your lungs completely with your out-breath.
Take a third deep breath in. Take your time. Hold it for a moment, and then let it go.
Already you are beginning to drift into a state of deep relaxation.
Continue to breathe slowly and gently.
Now bring your awareness to the top of your head.
Sense or imagine a feeling of relaxation beginning to spread down from the top of your scalp….
Let the muscles in your forehead and temples relax.
Allow your eyes to relax.
Let your cheeks and jaw soften and let go of all tension.
Now this peaceful feeling flows down your neck and deep into the muscles in your shoulders…soothing them…releasing them.
Allow this peaceful feeling to flow through your arms. Relaxing and soothing…all the way to the tips of your fingers.
As your body relaxes, your mind relaxes. Your thoughts become weightless, like wisps of clouds on the breeze.
Now the peaceful sensation flows through your chest and your stomach. Feel how this area gently rises and falls as you breathe…slowly and deeply. Soothing and relaxing.
Turn your attention to your back, and feel this relaxing sensation flow all the way down your spine.
Now the peaceful feeling flows through your lower body.
Relax your buttocks…the back of your thighs…the front of your thighs. Feel all these large, strong muscles becoming loose and relaxed.
Soothing feelings flow down through your knees, and into your calves.
Your ankles relax. Now your feet relax.
Your entire body is soft, calm and relaxed.
Now it’s time to leave the external world behind, and go on an inner journey. A journey to a place of deep inner stillness.
Guided Meditation Script Part 2
The Inner Journey
Imagine that you are standing on a white sandy beach.
It’s early in the morning, and a light, hazy mist surrounds you.
The sun is rising slowly. You can feel the warm, orange light on your face and your body.
You are feeling content. At ease. Relaxed.
The sand beneath your bare feet is soft and warm.
A light breeze caresses your face.
This beach is deserted. You have it all to yourself, and you have all the time in the world.
Listen to the relaxing sound of the ocean. Its waves are breaking gently on the shore.
Begin to walk slowly through the mist towards the water.
A small boat is waiting for you. The boat is comfortable and steady. Notice that it is tied to the shore with a strong rope.
Walk to the water’s edge and step into the boat.
You are feeling completely at peace, completely safe, and completely relaxed.
When you are ready, untie the rope…and let it go.
Relax, and allow the natural currents of the ocean to guide you away from the beach.
Your boat drifts smoothly. It rocks ever so gently in the water. This rocking motion relaxes you even more deeply.
The sun is now higher in the sky. Its light has gathered strength.
Notice that the mist that surrounds you is beginning to evaporate.
You can see the air becoming clearer and clearer.
Watch as the sun’s rays dissolve all of the mist. Now you can see clearly in all directions. It’s as though a veil has been lifted.
Sparkling ocean water surrounds you on all sides, and in front of you, a small island comes into view.
Your boat moves closer and closer to the island, gliding slowly and effortlessly through the water.
The island is drenched in sunlight. It is covered in tropical palm trees that sway gently in the breeze.
Your boat glides slowly forward, and comes to rest on the shore.
You have arrived.
Step out of the boat and take a moment to appreciate this place of sublime beauty.
Exotic birds dance from tree to tree, and brilliantly coloured flowers grow in abundance.
The air itself seems to shimmer and vibrate with pure, luminous energy.
You can hear the soothing sound of the wind as it passes through the trees.
In this place, you are free from all memories of the past. You are free from all concerns about the future. You are free from all responsibilities.
This is a place of total peace, and it is all yours.
You notice an opening between the palm trees. In the centre of this opening, there is a narrow path that leads deep into a rich green forest.
Begin your journey into the heart of the forest. Follow the path as it meanders between columns of ancient trees.
This forest seems familiar to you, like the memory of a pleasant dream, or a place you visited as a child.
Walk deeper into the forest. You are guided by a force that you trust, and that makes you feel safe, nurtured and still.
You have reached the very heart of the forest. Before you is a shimmering pond of crystal clear water. A pond of perfect stillness.
The pond is round, and it brims with pure spring water.
Notice that the water is perfectly still, like a mirror, free from even the slightest ripple.
A ladder with three steps leads down into the water.
You decide to bathe in this magical pond, and you undress.
As you take the first step down into the pond, you notice that the wind has eased. All the trees have become motionless.
As each moment passes, the world around you becomes more and more calm, and you yourself become more and more still.
As you lower yourself onto the second step, all the birds in the forest become quiet. Their silence is deep and reverent.
Now lower yourself onto the third and final step and glide into the water.
Feel yourself sliding into a deep state of relaxation. In this pond, your thoughts simply melt away.
All is still and silent. The only sound that remains is the sound of waves, far off in the distance.
Your mind seems to expand. You feel timeless…vast…empty…relaxed.
For the next few minutes, enjoy this experience of solitude and inner silence. When thoughts arise, simply let them go and return your awareness to the sound of the waves. When it’s time to return I will guide you home.